I have not been feeling the best lately. A new semester always brings about new challenges that one must overcome, especially when they are ill. I'm taking a full course load this semester, and wish I wasn't. To be able to get all of my financial aid I have to take a full course load, otherwise I would take fewer classes and choose to be in school a little longer, but with better health and better grades. I'm taking more challenging classes this semester, and they will continue to get more challenging as each new semester comes. I've put myself in a bit of a flare as the first week of tests has come. The stress of exams always makes me so sick, something I'm sure anyone reading this can understand. I had to stay home a few times this semester already, something I hate doing unless I really need to. I am a biology major and have labs twice a week that I go to. This week I missed a lab, and now have to try to squeeze it into another day to be able to complete the assignment that goes with it. The reason for me missing classes all day was that my joints have hurt so badly I haven't been able to get up and move without being in pain. The joint pain started over my weekend, and now it is joined by muscle weakness, and I am hoping for the best in that it will clear up on its own after my tests have past. I have had problems with myositis, which is not just muscle weakness due to fatigue but from the muscles actually becoming attacked and inflammed. Just typing this blog post I have had to let my arms rest on my lap several times because keeping them up on the table is too much. I could barely lift my arms to wash my hair this morning. This typically happens with a flare up, but I am hoping that it will pass because I honestly don't have the mental strength right now to deal with a full blown flare, not just my every day aches and pains. As bad as all of this may sound I really am enjoying my classes this semester. I am taking an immunology class which is fantastic. Being able to get a better grasp on how the immune system is supposed to work, and how it can malfunction, has given me a greater understanding of these diseases that we all deal with. I hope if you come across this post you find yourself in better health right now and are as pain free as possible. Keep fighting, and love life despite lupus. ♥
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8/21/2013 03:09:01 pm
Wow, this was a really moving post, and I can't thank you enough for sharing these great words of motivation. I can only imagine that gaining a better understanding of how the immune system works can help in the long run. Plus, it does seem like the immune system always seems to be struggling during that time around final exams.
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9/12/2013 04:22:22 am
I have to agree with you there Stephen, but I believe that it has a lot to do with the accumulation of added stress, and possibly less sleep if you are cramming for exams. Needless to say, but this can end up being quite a vulnerable time for your immune system.
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